Tears

Why is it so hard to get away
From the pain day to day
Sweet sadness fills me when you walk by
You glance past and catch my eye
Your soft skin provides an everbinding heat
It makes my whole world turn beat by beat
I catch my breath deep down inside
The heat is a cold no one can just push aside
I hate you and myself for not fighting this act
You pull me in and I fall right back
Each night I scream inside my head
Hoping you will just leave me in my bed
All of this happens in that moment so out of line
When your thoughts reached through you and into mine
Why do I keep telling myself this lie
The only thing left is to do is now is...cry.

sunday. Sunday. SUNDAY!!

Football sundays are always unique.
Each week we put on our team's jersey
We bust out the snacks
And soon enough the TV is on and kick off begins
The Vikings are the team of choice in my house.
The craziness begins the second Brett Favre steps on the field.

We are originally from Wisconsin, so naturally we liked the Packers
However, as soon as good ol' Brett decided to switch...

We decided to turn to the side of our long time rivals...
The Minnesota Vikings!!
Now, with every sack by Jared Allen
And all the pile-ups forged by Adrian Peterson
The Schulz family erupts into a series of yells and cheers
As we support our new Vikings on football SUNDAY!!

**Snowflakes**

**Snowflakes whirl around me **
**A single pane of glass separates me from the cold**
**The flakes fight for survival when they hit the wet ground**
**Soon enough they gather around me**
**They cling to one another to create one mass**
**Protecting me from the gusts of wind whipping off the trees**
**They won't last long...**
**The wind starts to deteriorate my fortress**
**They whisper goodbye**
**For they will be back next year**
**To protect me once again**
**From the crisp winter wind**

Christmas!!

Wrap the presents, underneath the tree.
Christmas is coming soon!
The holidays are in the air...families come together.
Its the most wonderful time of the year!

Holiday Sunday

On the 13th day of December my family gave to me.....
1 winning Vikings game,
2 hours of homework
3 relatives
4 ginger bread houses
and many more :P

Snow Day

She stares out the window as the snow falls down. She fumbles around for the remote. The TV is on in a flash. She leans forward, on the edge of her seat. Still fidgeting with her fingers, she pauses only to brush the curly blonde hair out of her face. As she squints at the screen, a smile breaks her hard face. In a flash, she yells out loudly. Her feet are on the ground in a second, and she is jumping high into the air.

There is one situation that every kid wishes for throughout the whole winter. As they stare wide eyed out the window as the snow falls down, they check the TV every minute to see if anything has changed. In the morning when they awake...immediatley, snow pants go on, neighbors are called, and hats and mittens are layered on. The beautiful snow scene outside is about to meet its match. There is no school, and the kids will celebrate.

It's a snow day!!

Let it Snow!!

Irreplaceable

What happens to a light when the bulb runs out?
Or a glass vase shatters on the floor?
A car crashes?
A person dies?
What happens?
There is no answer...only that nothing important is replaceable.
When something is gone...it's gone.
So just think about that the next time something breaks, and you just respond with..."we'll just get a new one"
There is not always a new one.
Some things are just irreplaceable.

Chicago

Every once in a while my dad will go off to a business conference somewhere in the US, and we will just kind of chill at home while he is gone. This time thought...we actually got to go. This weeks converence was about ultra sounds and it was held in Chicago. While he was at that, my mom, my sister, and I forged the city on foot. First we went out to lunch at this really cool restaurant called Rockits. They had the best burgers ever!! After that, we walked along the streets downtown and we checked out various shops and parks. We ended up at Millenium park which the flood every year to make a huge ice rink. But that wasn't the best part in my opinion. The best part of millenium park was a huge mirrored ball in the center of this empty space.

That was a lot of fun. After that, we headed over to this German holiday market square. It wasn't exactly as fun as we were expecting, but it was still cute. When we were done there, we met back up with my dad and we went out to eat at this one thai restaurant. It was really good as well. After we were done eating, we went over to the Lincoln Zoo. They do this special thing every year where they deck the whole zoo out in christmas lights, and they open it up at night. Last, when we were finished at the zoo. We took a cab on over to Navy Pier. That was really cool as well.

Train Ride

So, I was sitting on the train on the way to Chicago, when i thought of something. Why not try making a digital blog?! So I got my sister Riley to help me, and this is the awesome final product. Enjoy!!

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P.S.
We were quite bored remember...we were on a train.

Choices

At our age, people don't really think very far into the future. We think we are on top of the world, the only thing that is waiting for us is college and getting out of the house. Most people can't wait until that happens, and for some it won't happen at all. There are so many things waiting for us in our futures. Marriage, family, school...death. Have you ever thought about what will happen when those come? Maybe being back in high school won't be bad at all. You look back at the past and see how far you have come, and you look to the future and see how far you have to go. People underestimate how long they have to do the things they want. You don't have a gauranteed future. If you really think about it...those past years have gone by fast. Who says your future will go by any slower?
So why is everyone in such a big hurry to grow up?
Why can't we all live for today instead of worrying about tomorrow? So just remember:

"Turn off your mind, relax
And float down stream
Is it not dying.
Lay down all thought
Surrender to the void
It is shining
That you may see
The meaning of within
It is being
That love is all
And love in everyone
It is knowing
That ignorance and hate
May mourn the dead
It is believing
But listen to
The color of you dreams
It is not living
Or play the game
Existence to the end
Of the beginning"
-The Beatles
'Tomorrow Never Knows'

Family

A family is the gift given to you on the day you were born. They are always there for you no matter what happens throughout your life. Sometimes you may bicker and fight, but in the end you know you love them and they love you. So when family comes together, it should be no surprise, that crazy things happen all the time. When you are all together different things are constantly happening. Personally, if you were to look up the definition of weird online, I'm sure it would probably have something like this:

"The Schulz Family"

If you were to come to just one of our family dinners, you would definetly get your fair share of crazy. It would be dinner and a show :P Anyways, I am rambling...once again. Pretty much the reason for this blog is to just remind people (teenagers in particular) that no matter how much you may fight, your family will always love you. When your friends are gone, your family will still be there. So just walk up to your parents and tell them you love them...because I know from experience that most teenagers do not say that enough.

S.T.A.T.E '09

There's a certain feeling you get when the crowd starts to cheer

You don't know what to think you don't know how you got here

So you take a deep breath and breathe in the air

The taste of chlorine saturates it there

When you get up on the blocks

You don't look at the clocks

There is just you and the pool

Stretching out in front starts to rule

You head as you here "take your mark" it all changes

Your thoughts all shift and everything else ranges

From nothing to something in a fraction of a second

When the gun goes off your future is beckoned

The water rushes by

Its a sort of high

When you hit the wall
You just want to fall

It's exhausting but worth it

When you know what you want to get

And you know in the end it doesn't matter if you lose

Because just being there is all the you need to move

You towards your dream

Flying high above the sea

Miss Samantha Stanley

There is this girl in our grade
that you all know so well
who is quirky and weird
and is mighty swell
Her laugh is contagious
and always changing
If you catch her at the right time
you'll find her fishanging
What is that you ask?
Well you see...
It's when you go fishing
with your friends' Kim and Lee
There are many things she does
that some people find odd
and those who know her
would answer with a nod
but the thing with this girl
is that she is a great friend
that does some strange things
but we don't care in the end :D

????ummm????

Have you ever just completly spaced on something to say, right in the middle of a conversation

or something? I tend to do that a lot. Take right now for example. There are so many things to

right about, that I have absolutley no idea where to start. I feel like I have been posting too

many videos and poems and stuff. I have been trying to mix it up, but frankly I am fresh out of

ideas. Therfore my blog is getting kind of...well...boring, to say the least. So hey, if you have any

ideas at all, they would be much appreciated. Haha :P

I Don't Dance!!

Hey BATTA BATTA...SWWIIINNGG!!

The awesome chronicals of yet another superb video by the clan of freaks :P

Silent Night

I look to the sky as the clouds move in
There is a storm coming
Why bother with the sky
Theres not much to think about
When the change sets in
You talk of how people don't care
But yet you are just blind
You cant see when i look at you
I want more than just a fake smile and a gentle laugh
All i want is for you to say those words that I said to you so many years ago
The words i will never say but that i fear get stronger and stronger everyday
The first fight we had ended bad
I awoke the next morning to your apologies
The only choice i had was to say no and push you away
In the end I couldn't hide it anymore
But this time it was different...
You were gone, changed into something else
I had lost you, and I fear you may be gone for good
You speak of regret
So i wait for the change that doesn't come
Life is not a movie
As much as I dream and tell myself that everything will work out
Sometimes I just don't want it too
Because i know that when that time comes...
I would have lost you.

My Silent K night...

Change

There's a lot that goes through your mind before your life changes...

Who did this?
What is going on?
Where did I go wrong?
When did this happen?
Why me?
How did I let this happen?

And by then it's over...

All Hallows Eve!!

Creatures of fright
Come all tonight

Let the screams fill the air

With the little ones' scares

Who knows when you awake
Which monsters' your fate
Come those to me

On this All Hallows Eve!!

Happy Halloween!!

Binds

I don't want to have to fake a smile

everytime you are around

but then break down whenever your not

I wear an armor thick as stone as to keep

from getting hurt

but everytime you smile at me

i'm helpless and as hard as I try

I can't resist but fall back again

into the place that I tried so hard to forget

I try to avoid you

but you just keep coming back

that time long ago when you held me

close lingers in my dreams

and it seems that no matter

where i go i can't escape your pull

release me from these binds

that will not break

release me and for you


I will forget

An Interview w/ Luke

Q: Hey luke how are you?

A: i am terrific

Q: What did you do today?

A: I chilled on my couch and watched the new transformers

Q: How is life treatin you?

A: Pretty good...its the weekend so ive got nothin to complain about

Q: When was the last time you watched the show gossip girl?

A: YIOGDRE X,D=

Thanks, that is all :P

Just Stand Up

No matter what comes at you

Like the monster beneath your bed

Just stand up and face it

Hold your head up high

There are things that will bring you down

But as long as you keep believing

You could become a Miracle.

Most people today are thinking about the economy and the war...but as all of this is happening, there is an entirely different war being fought without guns. We made this video for anybody out there who has had to battle cancer or who is battling cancer right now. The StandUp2Cancer foundation is helping right now to rally groups together to create one voice to find a cure for cancer. You can join the fight by registering online at standup2cancer.org, or you can call

1-888-90-STAND.

Laughter

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? If not, you really should try it sometime. Laughter is the fruit of a healthy life. When you laugh you release all your tentions and fears and just let go. Sometimes a laugh and a smile can change someone's whole day. All you need is a few good friends or family.
Good friends can laugh together at absolutley nothing. When one finds something funny, the other laughs at that person laughing, and before you know it...your all on the floor laughing so hard you have tears running down your faces. You don't even need something funny to laugh at...So what I want you to do is just close your eyes and remember the last time you had a great laugh. If your not smiling...your skin is too tight : )

Words

Have you ever been in a situation

in which you wanted to just scream something out?

Or something you are dying to say but can't be said.

To some people words are just words...but to others a few simple words can change everthing

Some words are used more than others

Some are completley forgotten...

Words are used to define personality

So why do people keep to themselves all the time?

Nobody will ever see their true personality...




Have you ever thought of it that way?

Old Friends

There's something about talking to an old friend for the first time in a long time that makes you smile.

Old feelings return whether good or bad...you just start to think about all the "what if's" and the "defininetly not's".

Your mind starts to wander and you dig yourself deeper and deeper into a fantasy of what things would be like if you had never left.

You start to catch up on old times...you remember things you thought you forgot.

You laugh, and you may even cry...but in the end it's worth it.

Old friends are always there even when you think they have forgotten.

I guess there are somethings you never lose.

Seasons

Peacful trees like

my soldiers are

tall. Calm and

towering down

they take all the

darkness away

and I see in the

sky, that the stars

seem to sing to me

vastly and gently

waters coming down

now, it sinks deeper

and deeper still

like hands of

fate and by will

you can save it

and return with

the light.

the plants start to

show again.

my army rises

up so still and

I raise my arms

my battles begun

I will not forget you

though you caused

me much pain, I will

not forgive you

you brisk summer rain.

Love Today

Everbody's gonna love today, love today, love today. I said everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today...anywhere you want to, anywhere you got to...love love me, LOVE LOVE ME!!

Haha...I only have one explanation...we were quite bored : )

Thug Story?

I'm not sure if any of you have ever heard the song Thug Story by T-pain and...wait for it, Taylor Swift!! She is rapping!! It is a rather terrible song in my opinion, but it definently does provide a lot of laughs as you listen to good ol' Taylor's (and our) attempt to be bad ass :P So as you watch our video to this wonderfully magnificently hillarious song, I'm sure you will think to yourself...huh?

Poetry?

Well I'm not sure if any of you have noticed, but I'm not excatly a poem kind of person...I usually tend to slap a video on my blog and write about it, or I'll just end up rambling about something that people really just don't care about. So I decided I would give poetry one try, I don't think it's going to be very good, but somebody told me I should try anyways, so here is just a small attempt at one:

Don't you ever just
sit back and hide your face
because things will not
go right most of these days
and even though it seems
that everything's just dreams
you can't let it come around
and try to pull you down

There's a calmness on
the water that keeps you
falling back
you need to be there
you have to be there
and the lifeline keeps
on getting closer but
seems to slip away
you are not done here
you won't surrender

Haha, gee...that was a bust. That one was from a long time ago...I don't even think it makes much sense...but whatever, I warned you ahead of time that I am bad at this : )

Why are simple things so complicated?

We all try our best to keep from getting hurt, but will all our precautions ever end up doing anything in the end? Everybody experiences a bad realationship that ends in tears and you feel lost. You think that you will never get over it. When a person cries, they are spilling their deepest thoughts and feelings. That is why it feels so right to cry when you have a broken heart. Some people think that crying makes you look "soft" or "girly" and those people only feel angry towards those who have hurt them. Their hearts will start to overrule their head, and they will just end up digging themselves into a deeper position of heartache. Have any of you been thinking about any eperiences while reading this? It happens to all of us at some point in our lives. You just have to remember that no matter what happens...when everything feels like it's falling apart...just remember:
"Forget who hurt you yesterday, But don't forget who loves you today" -anonomys source

Define Normal...

Why is it that when you change who you are to be unique, you end up not being yourself at all?
Or when you love someone and they hurt you, you find somebody exactly like that person.
No matter what you do, you just want to "be yourself"?...

Definition of normal: conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.

Sound familiar?

I'm pretty sure at one point we all fall under the false impression that we are better than somebody else...
Like the "weird girl" in the hallway at school with not many friends,
Or the man on the street begging for money or food,
Or even the criminal behind bars.
This however is not true.

Everbody tries to be what they think is normal...
That girl is being who she thinks she should be, and although that man didn't choose to be there,
he is living the best way he knows how, and even the criminal was once a little kid playing ball in the park.

So ask yourself, why is it that a boy can tell a girl he loves her but be saying it to someone else?
Or a terrorist can commit unimaginable acts of violence?
How can a parent not even love there own child?

I ask these questions, because nobody knows the answer.
Nobody could read this and say that doesn't apply to me.
Because no matter what happens or how different we try to be.
We are all the same, all different shades of what we consider "normal"...

Right?

Just a Touch of Sleep Deprivation ;)

So the other night I had a swim meet and I guess that sometimes that is fun but other times it's quite boring to be honest. So this time we decided to make the ride home at 10:30 at night a little bit more exciting. All you need is:

1.) A video camera/ camera phone

2.) Good friends

3.) and lack of sleep

If you put all this together you get this:

Oh...and some Sunny D :)

Friendship

Good friends will

Always have your back

When you cry and when

You laugh

They will always be there

Good friends aren't

Embarrased to do stuff

That people think is weird

And they won't laugh at you

When you say something stupid

A good friend will cry just

From seeing you cry and

Will laugh with you even

When they don't know

What your laughing at

A good friend is someone

Who comes into your house,

Opens your fridge and says

"We need to go grocery shopping"

Good thing I have such

good friends...Love ya all!!

Hey Stephen

So, for anyone who doesn't know me and my friends, we are pretty weird. The other day we

were sitting around like a bunch of potatoes on a really big couch, and we decided...Hey! Lets

make a movie. So after enough thought to fill up the world's biggest DQ Blizzard, we decided that

Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift was a good choice. Now that we had the song picked out, we

needed to figure out what to actually do. We went through more ideas than the guy who

invented pepsi cola, and eventually we arrived at a conclusion...unlike Brett Favre who I think

still doesn't have a clue what jersey he intends to pin to his name.


Haha, hope you enjoy our version of the Mona Lisa :P

A Night Undercover

There comes a night once a year in which the
boys will have a "boys night" which obviously
doesn't involve us girls. So this year when that
night came along, us girls decided to take action.
Now this wasn't your average party crashing, we
planned this very carefully. First we started a
conversation with each of the boys involved in
this anti-girl gathering. When we had the confirmation that all the boys were settled and having a good time...we started our plan. First we dressed in all black and painted our faces...I felt just like Sherlock Holmes in one of his dark disguises. We got a ride from Ashley's dad around 12:30 a.m. which is when he got off work. Now we were in motion...he parked a little ways up the driveway and turned off all his lights. The minute we got out of the car, we started booking it down the hill to the back of the house. We each took turns running up and pounding on the windows in the basement. They all started freaking out just like we wanted, but then they started coming out. So we ran around and layed down at the base of their retaining wall and they were so scared. They started coming out and were yelling ridiculous things. Then things kind of turned around. One of them came out with a bat and so we all made a run for it, but he saw us and took off after us. We ran for a while, but in the end he caught us and they found out who it was. Even though we got caught...it was still a really fun time, and it was worth the reaction we got :P

Pretty Easy Going

So I just got done with school today, and i must say that it was pretty easy going as you probably could have guessed by the title. I went through my day kind of in a daze as everybody in the hallway walked past me...pretty much a typical Monday. In class i was my usual quirky, sort of strange self. That usually meant either singing in the hallway after choir or doing my latest dance moves :P Then I got to go to the overly anticipated swim practice. I walked in pretty much dreading it as usual and then I looked up on our workout board. It was the perfect cherry on top of a nice and easy day!! We barely had to do anything, so it was pretty awesome. Well, I just sort of realized that I have just been rambling about my day today...so sorry about that, but hey I'm not forcing anyone to read this :D haa. So if anybody wants to leave a comment about their day that would be cool, cause I figure I can read about yours since you sat through reading about mine. Well hasta luego...until next time :)

Good Day Mate!!

Well this is obviously my first blog on this website (to be honest my first blog ever)...but i will try to make this as painless as possible for anyone reading it. I'm not quite sure how to start this out, but i guess telling a little bit about myself wouldn't be too bad. Right now I am currently livin it up on the swim team, but i'm also on the dance and track team. I'm the second to youngest kid in my very large family, and I guess you could call me kind of a nerd. I really enjoy eating and "creepin the book" for all you facebook lovers out there...and I have watched every single episode of Heroes ever made!!! haha...that all just kind of touches on a little bit about me...hope i didn't bore you too bad :P Chau for now!!